Ok, so one day, I figured out something that changed everything. I had never thought of trying it out, but when I did it opened my eyes to something that stayed hidden from me for a very long time. My family had complained about it to me before, but for some reason it never sunk in. I can’t tell if I resented it, or if I was just not willing to face it.
Vulnerability here….ugh…..I’m about to share with you this one tip that made me realize I had to do something about my emotional eating. It is so simple that anyone can do it, however, I must warn you, it is powerful, and if you force yourself to do it long enough it has the ability to make you extremely aware of your eating habits in a way you may have never experienced before.
What is it? Well….uh, one day I got a mirror out, I set it on the table and I watched myself eat. That’s right, let me say it again..I watched myself eat every single bite.
I was appalled. Seriously…… I ate like a homeless kid, stuffing my face, chewing outrageously, acting as if I couldn’t wait to take the next bite. OMG, it was like I had never seen food before.
But then something shifted in my mind…a memory…. I could see that little girl inside me that grew up with nothing.
I grew up in a third world country. I had to get up at 4 am to go with my mom to get water for the day.
Once when I was 5, I was entrusted to clean the fish that my family was going to cook. I got sidetracked with my cousin and while we were playing, cats stole the fish.
That night…you guessed it….no dinner.
I tell you all of this not for you to feel sorry for me, rather to impress upon you that we all have reasons we can’t control our relationship to food.
So there I am sitting in front of the mirror stuffing my face as if I didn’t know when the next meal was coming. I realized I am still that little girl, so afraid of not having enough. When I feel like I’m getting out of control with my eating, I try to remind myself that things are different now. I have a good job and most likely won’t have to go without a meal anytime soon.
All the best,